So lately I've been on XboxLive (as I say a million times in my journals) and I've been playing Tekken Tag Tournament 2 and lemme tell ya...I've been fighting some of the biggest fags. I mean I'll admit there were times where I got my ass beat fair and square and sometimes I might quit matches because I just can't handle the spamming , cheating , and system abusing. I've gotten into arguments with 3 people through the mic. I assume cetain things about certain characters put together because that's just what I often see. Like for example a team with Xiaoyu and King--I'm gonna assume that team is one of those teams where the player knows jackshit about the game and they have terrible defense and they abuse the system by spamming combos. I hate how people think that just because you can do 12 hit combos that makes you good--it doesn't it really doesn't. I mean with that logic I can just buy any game and not even blink at the controls and refuse to learn good defense and just study the sample combos. I think being good at a fighting game is being able to time your attacks and having good defense. It's my biggest pet peeve in Tekken where people just think if they can do a 10+ hit combo they are a master at the game and that's just not how it works because I've fought so many people who rely on combos to win it's sad and ridiculous. I mean i'm not saying not to do combos at all but there's a difference between applying the system and abusing the system , not many people really understand what "abusing the system" means and that also irritates me. I hate system abusers because people just let them get away with it. I've also fought people who really go for the low down , top of the line cheapest shit on the game. I've avoided a handful of people and it's been a while since I've had a match I actually liked and enjoyed. I've fought some people who sucked so bad at the game , I really wonder why they come online with their type of skill. I've gotten a flawless victory on a couple of suckish people but I'm not gonna lie sometimes people get flawless victories off of me and I feel dumb as hell lol. I think I sound like a boy over the mic because the person over the line keeps saying "he". People always tell me I sound like a man , they say it so much I don't even notice it anymore it just goes right through me like water.
So this week was a pretty chill week , for school. My personal life has been pretty dramatic because of my parents--they haven't really been seeing eye to eye but I won't go too much into that. Tomorrow (Friday) my mom said we're gonna go to the mall and I'm pretty excited about that but I'm not sure if we really are going. I've taken my exams on Tuesday , Wednesday and today (Thursday) and on Friday there's a half-day of school and I'm not going to school so I can stay up all night long tonight but I doubt I will because I've been up since 6:05 and I'd be kinda silly to try and force myself to stay awake but I wanted to write a journal before going to sleep because YOLO no I'm just kidding but I wanted to write a journal because I felt it was time for a regularly scheduled update.
Oh today was the Black History performance and I found out the committee for it were practicing all this much time through lunch and I didn't even know so at last minute I was given a part to read the introduction. I honestly think I'm one of the best readers on this planet , I read fluent-er than a motherfucker (lol that was so unneeded). I was nervous/scared but then I sucked it up and did what I had to do like a gangsta. The rest of the girls in the committee recited their parts of the poem "Phenomenal Woman" by Maya Angelou.
I guess I'm still kinda crushing on this boy I've talked about in one of my previous journals who I call Jo-Jo. I think he's been totally avoiding me and I feel like one of those crazy stalker fangirls. I don't really know why I act like I like him so much when in the back of my head I know he's not even all that cute and good enough for a girl of my status. I look at him from a distance and he might notice I'm looking at him and then we have very awkward 5-second eye contact and then I quickly look away so from that I guess he'll automatically assume I still kinda like him. I don't think I really like him but there was a time I liked him a bunch AND THAT WAS THE DAYS HE ACKNOWLEDGED MY EXISTENCE now I'm just nothing to him now but fuck him anyway he was a player and I said in one of my previous journals that I hate players and wish they all fucking die.
So I've made it official that I'm gonna be leaving the city of New Orleans when I get old enough because I'm really starting to get sick of the people here specifically the students at my school. I hate how black people get to shit on white people but when a white person says one insignificant thing they're a racist asshole bitch that needs to be killed. I hate when people at my school tell me I want to be white/I act white/I talk white/I think I'm white. By their logic they're saying that only white people are able to speak intelligently which makes zero sense because I've seen TONS UPON TONS of black people who speak "like a white person" and I even have those people in my family. I guess I act the way I do which is different from your average ass-shaking-loud-talking-violent-ghetto-stupid black girl but sometimes I don't even consider myself black lol , I'll just say I'm Native American and white (but in all seriousness I really do have Native American in my genes). I act "like a white girl" because (I hope nobody's taking offense to what I'm saying lol) when I was really young I went to a Catholic school that had a lot of white people and so I guess that never really wore off me also because anyone who I've ever been good friends with wasn't black they've either been white , Asian or bi-racial black so if you're 100% black we're not friends no I'm just joking I like people who like me and I'll be friends with anyone as long as their patient enough to put up with my annoying-ness.
*I didn't proofread this journal so there might be mistakes